Tired

I'm tired of falling in love.
I'm tired of just getting pain.
I'm tired of looking for joy.
I'm tired of feeling so insane.

Tired of trying so hard,
Of never being good enough.
Tired of faking a smile,
Of pretending like I'm tough.

I'm tired of comparing myself.
I'm tired of begging for respect.
I'm tired of wanting to fit in.
I'm tired of always being the reject.

Tired of waiting for Prince Charming,
Of wishing on shooting stars.
Tired of praying to be wanted,
Of having to hide my scars.

I'm tired of fighting to breathe.
I'm tired of trying to be the best.
I'm tired of just being me.
I'm tired so please let me rest.

Day 1

Dear Diary,

I woke up today
But the sadness hasn't gone away
So somehow I got out of bed
Brushed my teeth and pulled clothes over my head
Stepped out into the crisp air
I forgot my shoes but I didn't really care
And the cold snow bit at my toes
Haha you know how that goes
I started walking down the street
Yeah yeah with my bare feet
Mainly just 'cause I felt like I can
Made it about three miles before I ran
And I ran to feel the wind on my face
And I ran to get away from that place
And I ran to forget about the past
And I ran, Diary, I ran so fast
Till I hit the ground and had to crawl
But it made no difference at all
I guess the sadness is my new best friend
Blame it all on me and for how I've sinned
My hands and knees were frostbitten
But somehow I managed to get up once again
And made it back to the other side of my door
Diary I don't think I can do this anymore
Day after day it's too much to take
Please tomorrow, don't let me wake.